Returning to normal(ish)

My mom went home after 6 weeks of being here and waiting for hubby to get home. We had the funeral and then the celebration of life, she needed to get back home. As she said, there was nothing more she could do… the hardest part was behind me and she had things she needed to do at her own home.

She wanted us to come with her to visit, but 6 weeks in the same house is enough for now. We are not thrilled by the idea of a 16 hr trip and sleeping in someone else’s bed/house after just getting back from a road trip and a week-long trip in Maryland. The reason for going back with her would have been a family memorial service for my family who couldn’t make the trip to Maryland, but between work schedules and new jobs starting and people being trained… it didn’t seem like it was a good time for it. I’ll schedule it another time. I want it to be a positive remembrance, not another tear-fest. I want it to be people who knew him.. to share stories and laughter. It won’t be a big affair, there weren’t a lot of people who knew him all that well there. Anyway.. it’ll wait.

Yesterday was the first day since this all started that we by ourselves in the house. We decided that we would go pokestop hunting and explore the town we’ve been living in rather than sit in the house. We discovered a lot of new things to do when it gets cooler. There are a couple of nature reserves that we can explore, there’s a big park with walking trails and a community pool. We want to lose some weight so it seems like it’s a fun trip and can be topped off by a cooling off with a cool dip afterward. We discovered a botany preserve and some historical sites that can be fun to check out (when it’s not 100 degrees out). And we caught a buttload of Pokemon, had a cheap lunch and a good time and good talk in the meantime.

It was a good day. 🙂

I start work at a new job on August 15th. That is a bit of good news. Cleaning the house myself, going out grocery shopping and cooking dinner… it’s all steps to our new normal. We are discussing what to do next.. and to get a new permanent path to what we want in life. What we can achieve and how. There’s so much to think about… but we are setting goals and plotting ways to get to those goals.

Another positive note, I’m feeling the urge to write again, after 6 weeks. That’s a good sign isn’t it?


11 thoughts on “Returning to normal(ish)”

  1. It is a good sign that you are on the road to healing. You will have good days and bad days but you will get through it all. So pleased to hear you found a job. Hugs to you and your son.

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  2. So good to read this, you’ve both taken a huge step, I’m glad you had a good day and hope that they will soon outnumber the bad, but it will take time. I too send you a virtual hug 😊

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  3. I am glad to hear you are home and thinking about what’s next. You will have good days and bad days, it takes time Kawanee but thank goodness that your son is there with you.
    Good luck on you new job and I am happy to hear that you feel like writing again. That’s a good sign. I will keep you both in my prayers. I am here if you need an ear, Keep well.

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  4. It sounds as though things are settling down into a pattern for you now. You’re doing fine in adjusting. I agree that it’ll take time. It’s wonderful you have a new job and are going to start writing again. Your son is such good company for you, and it helps both of you to be together at this time. All the best to both of you. I’ll continue to keep you in my prayers. ❤ — Suzanne

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  5. All in good time Kawanee. But thrilled the terrible dilemma of getting your husband home is done and you’ve had the service and now a job, this is great. The healing will progress with good days and bad, but time will make things better and new doors will open. 🙂

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