Well, we got our new home, Yippee for not sleeping on mom’s couch anymore! Still working on getting moved in, the move was going great until…. one of my fingers suffered a blowout.
I slammed my fingers in the liftgate on my SUV. X-rays say nothing is broken, but top of one finger is kinda mangled where the blood was forced out of the tip. It’s still bleeding after a couple of days and it hurts like a __________! Will likely end up losing the fingernail.
I’ll post pics as soon as I can. (of the new house and the fingers)
While moving we found a stray kitten, sooooo I now have a pet. 🙂 I thought moving into a new place would be emotional for me, but it was okay until I had to move hubby’s dresser and saw all his clothes that I wasn’t ready to deal with and pack away. The dresser still has a hint of his cologne and it’s hard to see them knowing they’ll never be on the floor next to the clothes hamper instead of in it like he used to do. I used to roll my eyes when I came in to see them like that…
I’m holding it together by keeping busy, trying not to be a pain in the butt to my relatives. Doing what I can on my own… People tell me I’m doing great.. but I know I’m not really. I have bouts where I want to scream and punch walls, rail at the world, destroy things. I’m angry and sad, a little scared, I miss the big goofy lug, but trying to hold it together. I also just want to stay in bed and ignore everything… just cry and not have to worry about upsetting anyone else..
But crying causes headaches…and I get little moments where sad leaks out. Last night it was at the drive thru at Taco Bell, and just after I turned the lights off for the night.
We are settling in, I hope to start training for a new job on the 17th, one with benefits and bonuses. Not as much money as I’m used to earning but the cost of living here is cheaper, now I’ve got to get my son back on his schooling and on track. He’ll need a job too, if were going to make it.
I’ll be back to posting helpful bits and more regular when I get the house set up.